Lotje was a perfectly normal and healthy individual, when one evening she woke up experiencing flickering of lights, terrible pain in her brain, confusion, euphoria, fear, and as she says during the movie she was "lacking her clever". Lotje was actually experiencing a inter-cerebral brain hemorrhage at this time and she did not know it. She traveled to a local nearby hotel and crashed in their bathroom, waking up to find herself very confused and scared in a hospital room recalling nothing that happened before her injury. They announced at the end of the movie that Lotje had a pre-birth malformation of blood vessels in her brain, and this was the unique cause of her incredibly young age of having a stroke.
Lotje is such a beautiful young lady inside and out! From the first second I started watching this movie, the way she was always smiling, laughing, and positive on how she was going to get her "clever" back was incredibly inspiring for me to watch. Lotje experienced a severe amount of dysphasia, due to damage to the left side of her brain. For her to output language was the hardest part I noticed, which is referred to as Broca's aphasia. To be honest, I am not sure how she kept such a positive and happy attitude. When I was watching this film I was getting frustrated for her because she was clever and smart and to not be able to articulate what we are feeling and thinking has to be one of the most un-empowering and helpless feelings we can feel.
"Within your own self is a treasury, an ocean of pure bliss, consciousness, intelligence, creativity, love. We are not defined on limitations but endless possibility."-Mr Lynch. This is Lotje's motto that she follows through her recovery process. I love that she sees her new situation as one that is what you make it, one that still has a lot of beauty, intelligence, and love. I hope as a therapist I can take her advice that she gives us as future therapists in the film which is to " Focus on the things the patients find along the way". For Lotje, her discoveries along the way were that through typing she could form complete sentences and thoughts which was a huge milestone for her. She felt like she got back some of her normal and that was such a beautiful moment of communication and her finding some normal that she used to have.
Overall, I think I realize from watching this movie that first, life and health are so so short. They can be taken for granted quickly. We tend to move through our days acting as if they are chores and forgetting to laugh, smile, and celebrate that some people would kill just to be able to articulate and write a paper again. Many people would be enthused to be able to have a husband to argue with, or a rent to struggle to pay. I think this is an important concept to grasp especially as we prepare for our rotations as future practice as a therapist. Our problems often aren't even problems in their opinion. Their problems are basic, yet life altering. Focusing on our clients with a self less practice will be necessary. If we don't, I think they will be able to feel that. They make have had a stroke, but I often think when one strong sense is taken away from you, other senses may be heightened just like Lotje's. After her stroke she had very strong sense of feelings, and the feelings of those around her. As always, I finished this film with a sense of gratitude, and a motivated and excited heart to make a difference in my little corner of the world soon.
Reference
Robinson, S. (Producer), & Robinson, S & Sodderland, L. (Director). (March 18th, 2014). My
Beautiful Broken Brain [Motion picture]. London.